and another thing.......

it's true. my desire to paint has been halted.

this too shall pass.

Closure, Finally.

recently, i had a dream. it was just a blurb of a dream. not like 20 minutes, or a whole night of dreaming.. but just a blurb. a fast car passing by.

i was standing at my kitchen sink, doing my evening dishes, when i heard a key in my door. i stood there, waiting to see who was opening my door, when the door opened. it was my former partner. she used a key to open my door, and she was just as surprised to see me as i, her.

she said, "i've come to return your key." (when she left me, she told me she threw the key away) all i could say was, "thank you."

i do believe that this little blurb was closure. i do believe this was what i've been waiting for for 16 months. she never told me why she left me. never explained anything. just cut me off cold.

she is her mother.
and i had closure with the meanest woman in the land.